Maybe Why I'm Doing This?

I've recently had a bit of a medical scare, and I'm still not out of the woods yet. I have a blood clot in my right shoulder. I have none of the normal risk factors for a blood clot; I'm healthy, I exercise, I eat pretty well, I don't smoke, I have no family history of blood clots, and I haven't had any surgeries or major injuries. What I do have is Paget-Schroetter disease. It means that the little hole where my artery, vein, and nerve go from my neck to my arm is tighter than normal (this occurs in 15-20% 0f people) and by leading an active life I've managed to irritate the subclavian vein, which runs through my shoulder, enough to cause a blood clot to form in my shoulder in what seemed a random fate at first.

This is a very rare disease, something that occurs in maybe 1 out of every 50,000 people. The fact that this has happened to me at what is normally a relatively care-free time in a person's life has given me a lot of pause. While I believe the treatment my doctors are prescribing, which includes several invasive procedures and steady doses of blood-thinners, should hopefully get me healthy again, I can't shake the feeling of my own mortality. Life is terribly unexpected, and I need to start living it with more urgency. I've always loved to write, I've always loved to discuss. This is my attempt to live what I love.