Writing

I've had this goal for a long time to write everyday. But maybe I'm just not gritty enough.

I think what has always appealed to me about writing is the ability to create something out of seemingly nothing. Your thoughts, which are constantly spinning during the day, can be transformed into coherent thoughts by the focused force of concentration it takes to put words down on the page. If you do it often enough it no longer even feels like work, and the words just pour out of you. When you're hammering away at the keyboard, and the words appear on the screen just as fast as you type them, as if your hands were directly connected to the synapses in your brain, it's a wonderful feeling of accomplishment. But of course real writing requires rewriting, requires rethinking. It's not enough just to hammer away, you also have to be critical of what you're actually saying. Is that what I mean? How will someone reading this understand what I just said? Is that the point I want to make? What's the most important thing I'm trying to convey? Is this boring? And so on. If you don't think about those things your writing becomes little more than typing.

What am I trying to say right now? I suppose it's that I needed to start typing to start writing again. I've made a lot of excuses about why I didn't want to write, and all of those moments of laziness have added up over time to a lot of non-writing, which was the opposite of my goal in the beginning. I want to write, and so I had to start with something, and sometimes nothing turns into something quite worth writing.